A Notice of Slowatus

[blue_wayfinder]

So, I'm declaring a sort of slowatus from now until December. Only sort of though, because I can still regularly tag in the morning and afternoons (unless I'm finishing up assignments/reading before class) but more of my evenings need to be devoted to sleep. Of course, since I have all the self-policing ability of...something with no self-policing abilities so to speak of, I hope declaring it here will make me go to sleep earlier.

This affects Aqua, Eve and Ryuuren.

Idk how to call this post

[sayatakagi.livejournal.com]

Hi SC <3. Okay I’ve something coming up so this is a heads up of the sorts? (also some need ideas?)

Despite her attitude, Saya is currently suffering from Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD): a severe anxiety disorder that can develop after exposure to any psychological trauma that overwhelmed the individual's ability to cope. If you want to know WHY, I can tell you in detail, but her canon is basically about Zombie Apocalypse happening in a normal non magical non fantasy non superhero non supernatural world.

Her symptoms are associated with experiencing the original trauma through nightmares which leads to difficulty falling or staying asleep and hypervigilance. She sleeps with a bat close to her, she stays awake, reading countless books until she finally is too tired to be awake, or just passes out from lack of sleep. Overall, when she is alone, she feels the sensation of panic growing inside her, and that’s why she goes to morning practice and recently asked to go to school (though she does like school, really). But when with others, she is just fine and doesn’t seem traumatized at all.
She has triggers. But it’s a bit different from most triggers. Sound of scrapping the walls, smell of rotten flesh, dead bodies, as you can see these triggers aren’t exactly easy to bring out to her and make her panic. She is still very tense to strange and sudden noises, though.

She hasn’t been sleeping properly for a month and half; her insomnia is nearly permanent and only allows her to sleep one-two hours at each time, and like I said she passes out for example, when she is taking a bath or watching tv or she’s reading. Small things would be noticeable to those who are close to her but SHE HAS NO ONE CLOSE TO HER BUT SENDO. Lol. It’s so sad.
However, for those who train with her will notice a decrease of her strength, ability to concentrate and ability to do proper exercises. Her focus is off too, and she is becoming slower, instead of faster to react, like it was supposed to happen if you are working out everyday.

Saya isn’t obvious. While she doesn’t mind talking about her world, she doesn’t go around explaining it. She doesn’t want kind words and she doesn’t want pity. Nor she wants others to understand what she’s lived because no one will actually understand it.


So. How do I exactly approach a theme like PTSD without making my character look like an attention whore? I don’t even know. I never had PTSD, all I know is what I’ve been reading about it. How am I going to make it obvious that Saya IS NOT OKAY, without having Saya making it obvious?

I was given the idea to start with a simple network post about help in order to sleep. Which is not ooc for Saya to ask and does sound good? And this is why I’m posting this. It’s basically a heads up for that upcoming post, why it was posted, where you can take it, and it’s also for if anyone has any idea on how I can approach this whole deal, help to develop it and to work it (because i'd love you forever).

Proxy hiatus and slowatus

[burning-pride.livejournal.com]

Our Gwendal-mun is going through rough times IRL so I'm posting a hiatus on her behalf. I don't how much it'll last though it'll probably last for a long time.

And... some of you might have noticed it but I might as well make it official: RL and college are kicking my rear atm so this is also a slowatus notice for me "orz.

Hiatus
Gwendal von Voltaire | knitted_brow

Slowatus
Wolfram von Bielefeld | burning_pride