But there is no initiation, either, only application. Those two concepts are worlds apart. Initiation requires, as you say, a test of courage or determination or something. An application requires only two things: that you fill out the application and that you submit it on time. That's what this is--an application. You can't play unless you give it in, much like how you can't chew the food on your plate until you put it in your mouth. It's process. I can see the point you are trying to make, and I do understand, but the connection just isn't there to be made. Determined or not, your application is looked at the same as all the other applications. That's what I want to make clear--even if other people have their opinions on the matter, that doesn't change that this is very simply an application like any other.